Currently Reading The Irresistible Revolution: Living as an Ordinary Radical By Shane Claiborne see related

I highly recommend The Irresistable Revolution, by Shane Claiborne! I started reading it a couple days ago.

I'm really getting antsy lately. my job is great; I love the girls I work with, and the kids are [usually] well-behaved. I'm looking forward to having an apt. at college this year. I've been emailing my roommates & they all seem so sweet! I've been getting along with my family pretty well and hanging out with friends on the weekends. so what is wrong here? why am I so restless? I think I'm gaining a clearer picture of what God created me to do on this earth, & it's hard waiting for the right time.

people always ask college kids, "what do you want to do with your life?" I usually offer something to satisfy them about being an elementary school music teacher. but, what I really want to do is be close to the heart of God, to love, with body, soul, and spirit, to do something of the utmost importance, to look people in the eyes, to be devoted to truth, to listen, to be bold, to do the unexpected. I want to be wise, to learn, to forgive, to grow, to be merciful.

is there something wrong with wanting to go live in Africa with people who have nothing just because they need you? is it wrong to move to the worst neighborhood of the center city just because you're not afraid? is it bad to try to help people who are dying on the inside just because you used to be? is it all right to have dreams just because they might mean something to someone?

I think reading Shane's book is helping me a great deal, to uncover something precious God has placed in my heart. even in the first few pages, something in it really resonated with me, and the Spirit moved me to tears.

not that this really relates, but to me, it does right now - I'm listening to a Future of Forestry song called Speak to Me Gently, and here are some of the lyrics:

I'm searching the stars
In desperate hours
Bound to find meaning
God shows a face
In this desolate place
And tenderness meets me

Stories untold
Of redwoods grown old
Reside in the forest
And there you can hear
A whispering tear
That speaks into our loneliness

Can you just feel the time
Falling from some place new?
Can you just feel the sign?
Love waits for you